After I completed the previous 5 sketches, I was beating myself up. I was expecting so much from myself. I was only a few weeks post op, I could only really draw on my iPad as I had to lay in a specific position and if I ever leaned down at all I started dribbling every where. Plus I didn’t feel myself, and honestly as I am writing this weeks later at the point of being 5 weeks post op I am only feeling like myself 50% of the time. How can I make my best work, work which represents me when I don’t even feel like myself.
I was still beating myself up when creating the next stage of work, I was so determined to not be behind when I returned to Uni, but I couldn’t work out an idea which I was proud of.
So I did what I do when I am having a rough time, and I started writing, something I am not very good at but getting all the swirling thoughts out of my head always helps. When doing the Son of a Glitch workshop I received 3rd Person Tragedy. For some reason this reminded me of journalism and news articles. But I also thought of all the stories I heard when travelling all over Asia. So I started writing it all down and created it in a style of a newspaper article and I started over laying sketches and ideas to create a mock-up.
Even though I decided I wasn’t going to go down this route as in layout for my final outcome, just getting an idea out was helpful and this idea developed.
Here I started to go down the route to create a zine or a small book in the style of a travel journal using the storytelling through text and imagery, however even though I liked this idea I just wasn’t sold. I think I felt like I had to follow this route I had spent weeks going down, researching and putting time in, but it didn’t feel genuine.