Looking inwardly, I started to write down all the things which Adam said to me which were manipulative, controlling or could be considered abusive. When I started I struggled to get a couple of things down but once I had moved past 4-5 it all came out of me in waves and I ended up with 5 pages.
When doing this exercise, I had the realisation that by the end of our relationship I wasn’t myself anymore, I was just a puzzle roughly glued together of these words. I wanted to experiment with texture, typography and collage (by using a photocopier) and see if I could create anything interesting out of these words.
I wrote them quickly writing them down in ripped up pieces of paper, and then photocopied them. I then took the photocopy and laid that behind all these pieces and I just repeated. I also wanted to experiment with ripping up the photocopies and repeating.
I then experimented quickly with drawing a portrait over the top digitally.