Minor Project Research

As recently I have been preparing my portfolio for my masters applications, I have been going through a lot of my old work. And for me the obvious thing which connects everything is portraiture, but one thing which links my more successful pieces are when they have a story and emotion behind them.

I love creating autobiographical pieces, and in general creating image which shows something which can never be visible, for instance mental health.

I always distance myself from my pieces though, like it is not my mind I am talking about and it’s more of a general concept.

Last year for the migration project at the beginning of year 2 I completed this piece, and this is an idea I want to push forwards more.

This piece showed my journey of emotions and experience after I moved to London by myself when I was 17.

This was one of the first pieces I did which was truly about my experience, even if this was not a piece I ever shared on Social media, it scared me.

Another Auto-biographical piece I have done but not in the form on portraiture was a side, personal project I completed during year 1 and the beginning of year 2. I completed a 80 page limited edition (50 copies) hand printed book, exploring the idea of recovering from trauma, specifically after sexual assault. I delved in and told my story, but more so showed how I did heal even if it took time, and it was creating from drawings, sketches and writing I did while recovering and trying to work through my mind of thoughts.

I want to continue to explore these subjects, such as mental health and trauma, and also the idea of being autobiographical and explore how I can intertwine these with portraiture and print. But also the idea intrigued me of what the world looks like through different peoples lenses due to their own personal experiences.

Eye Paintings – Experimenting with Analogue paintings in Photoshop

My first eye painting competed, with lightning inside the Iris.

After the last few weeks of trying to collect some ideas, I wanted to get something down on paper but I was unsure of what. Like most of my ideas, this one, of illustrating eyes as they are frequently called windows to the soul, came very late at night. I sketched out some eyes, at different perspectives and of size, to that I would a have a vessel to insert images into the iris’s either as I was painting or at a later date until digital tools, some of the eyes were too small to draw into. With the image above, I painted it using the colours in the photograph and then I want to experiment with the colour digitally to convey personality aswell. Below, I used a super warm colour palette consciously to try and convey personality that way as well.

My second eye painting, at this point uncertain what is going inside the eye, however I was trying to get myself painting again.
Using photoshop to create a stencil/cut out look, if I decide to look further into stencilling or could be used for screenprinting in the future.

Once I had painted two small paintings (7x10inch) I scanned them and edited on photoshop, again looking at how they could be either screen-printed or stencils. The first one, I tried to make the shapes as simple as possible after I realised my last attempt was too complicated and fidely.

Something about the simplicity of this image I really appreciate.

With this image, even though I never got to the stage of inserting the image of personality into the iris, I found the mark making and the simplicity gave across a sense of personality and made me start to consider mark marking in the use of my portraits expressing personality.

Workshop 4 – 4/05/20

In this workshop we were required to draw our process during this Independent Project and how this would look like in a piece of visual communication. I was more concentrating on how this would help me gather my thoughts more coherently and where I am now and what I need to complete to move forward. Therefore I completed it like a mind map, however with one start point and end point. However everything in between is all interconnected and linked because the process isn’t a straight line. In my map, I placed questions I need to ask myself throughout the process. It has helped me clear my mind and know what I need to work on next.

My Mind Map, the outcome for this workshop.

Stencil Experimentation

As I haven’t been able to achieve/do any printmaking since the lockdown, I experimenting with hand cutting paper stencils and the spray painting them, I have learn a lot however I am unsure if I will be able to do this for this project as I am now encountering financial difficulties.

One of the 4 stencil layers.
I used coins to weigh the stencils down and keep them flat.
First attempt, after this one of my main stencils got destroyed, therefore I improvised. I also learned one brand of my spray paints doesn’t work well for stencilling as it is quite thick and doesn’t lay as evenly, takes a white to dry and become quite gummy.
Without using the broken stencil
At this point I gave up on the 2 colours of spray paint from a different brand which just seemed not to work as well so I rummaged and found these two old blue spray paints. I also used the broken second stencil an improvised. Used the parts which were still together and used others just to lay down and create some texture in certain places.
The final image, after scanned and digital enhanced.

Sequence and Time – Idea Development

Knowing I wanted to use typography and textures, I started experimenting. I went into the letterpress workshop and just experimented with wood type, for texture, and ornaments, knowing I was thinking about using collage in my animation and I thought about making flowers out of ornaments would be interesting, or making flowers out of printed text.

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I then moved back to the idea of using a song, and I thought I could use a more obvious choice, something which hits the nail on the head a little more than the others. However I like the more abstract and emotional approach. And picked the song ‘When it don’t come easy’ And wrote out the lyrics by hand, I find this helps to understand the meaning behind the words and I can brainstorm out of them.

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From here I moved onto gathering ideas for the typography I wanted to use, and I liked the hand I used in the Summer Project and here, but I wanted to experiment with other ideas as well.

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I had been working on creating a font for my professional practices project and it was similar style, instead of creating a whole new font I experimenting with adapting it, so all the baselines are different so it creates the up and down nature of my hand drawn font. I may not use the font specifically, but I thought it may help during the planning phase, or if I go down another path.

Examples of my font – written in Word

I then started to experiment with the idea behind the animation. I want to look at the things we are losing, such as fish and bees. But also other animals and food. So I started sketching out line-drawings of examples of these, Cod, Bees and Coffee Beans.

The next steps now is creating a storyboard, and then an animatic. From there I can start breaking down the image and textures I need and work on them. Then I need to start getting reading to start creating my college animation, and making the decisions on how much if any will be digital.

Sequences and Time – Music Inspiration

There are two songs from Sleeping at Last which I straight up thought about and I am struggling to decided between the two at this moment, however we were only given the brief 18 hours, so I need to sleep on it at least and explore the ideas for the two.

The First song is “Can’t smile without you.” which is a really simple cover of The Carpenters song of the same name.

I thought of this song originally because of the colours of the single, however listening to it really sparked ideas within me, and the lyrics to me connect to what we are going to loose through climate change.

“Can’t Smile Without You”
(originally by Carpenters)

You know I can’t smile without you
I can’t smile without you
I can’t laugh and I can’t sing
I’m finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when you’re sad
I feel glad when you’re glad
If you only knew what I’m going through
I just can’t smile without you

You came along just like a song
And brightened my day
Who would have believed that you were part of a dream
Now it all seems light years away

And now you know I can’t smile without you
I can’t smile without you
I can’t laugh and I can’t sing
I’m finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when you’re sad
I feel glad when you’re glad
If you only knew what I’m going through
I just can’t smile

Now some people say happiness takes so very long to find
Well, I’m finding it hard leaving your love behind me

And you see I can’t smile without you
I can’t smile without you
I can’t laugh and I can’t sing
I’m finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel glad when you’re glad
I feel sad when you’re sad
If you only knew what I’m going through
I just can’t smile without you

If you only knew what I’m going through
I just can’t smile without you

The next song is “When it don’t come easy”

This wasn’t the first song in my head however I love the feel of the music, and it is another cover, however it is not as obvious for Climate Change, which I like the idea of, I don’t like hitting the nail on the head. I like some of the imagery in the song, the idea of what we have had before and crying for what we have lost, and that really resonates with me and excites me for this project. And the idea that this isn’t easy, to fix or to deal with.

Red lights are flashing on a highway
I wonder if we’re gonna ever get home
I wonder if we’re gonna ever get home tonight
Everywhere the waters getting rough
Your best intentions may not be enough
I wonder if we’re gonna ever get home tonight

But if you break down
I’ll drive out and find you
If you forget my love
I’ll try to remind you
And stay by you when it don’t come easy

I don’t know nothing except change will come
Year after year what we do is undone
Time gets moving from a crawl to a run
I wonder if we’re gonna ever get home

You’re out there walking down a highway
And all of the signs got blown away
Sometimes you wonder
If you’re walking in the wrong direction

But if you break down
I’ll drive out and find you
If you forget my love
I’ll try to remind you
And stay by you when it don’t come easy
When it don’t come easy

So many things that I’ve had before
They don’t matter to me now
Tonight I cry for the love that I’ve lost
And the love I’ve never found
When the last bird falls
And the last siren sounds
Someone will say what’s been said before
It’s only love we’re looking for

But if you break down
I’ll drive out and find you
If you forget my love
I’ll try to remind you
And stay by you when it don’t come easy
When it don’t come easy

Project Brief – Sequence and Time – Initial Ideas and Brainstorming

I am going to be honest here, I can not sleep, we is usual for me, and I find getting ideas and thoughts out my head either personal or creative can help me relax and sleep. I also want to get my initial ideas down about the brief before they get lost in my head.

After today’s workshop and briefing with talks of thinking of demographics and audience it made me think of food, especially as a chef, and food and its surronding subjects is something I have wanted to explore in my image making and I wanted to think about how my industry affects the environment.

In my industry there was so many things I could think of which have a negative impact, such as unsustainable farming and fishing, pesticides, but also how kitchens run on high energy, and I have worked in a lot of restaurants with charcoal grills. But I also wanted to think of issues I am passionate about.

I support climate change, I have mixed feelings about Extinction Rebellion, which I will go on to into a bit. I hate plastic. At the moment I am using single use plastic bottles as I am finding them the easiest to drink out of after jaw surgery, but I am still using the same bottle over and over. I have a reusable coffee cup (I know not plastic waste, but the same idea). I always take my own bag when I do my shopping. I try not to use wipes, because I know they contain plastic however they were a must for me after my surgery because I know not a lovely thought but I constantly dribbled for the first 3 weeks after surgery, I still am dribbling now not so much. I use a bar of soap, plus bars of shampoo and conditioner, I don’t buy aerosols, where possible (spray paint on the occasion may be the only exception). I use refill shops where possible, I hate food waste (I think that is also partly the chef in me) and all my left-over food I turn into lunch the next day, and I carry my own cutlery around when I remember.

However when it came onto the idea of creating an animation my mind went onto another subject I am passionate about, sustainable fishing as we are killing our oceans. We are killing the bees which is so important for crop growth. I knew straight away these were the kind of topics I wanted to focus on. For many reasons and not just because I am passionate about them, I thought I could make a creative animation and film around these.

Last year, when the last project was Through a Lens I wasn’t happy with the outcome. I never felt like me, and I was so worried about being actually able to create an animation to a high standard I forgot who I was. This time round, even though this is a bigger project I want to create an animation again, but this time reflecting who I am and my ideals.

I know I am setting myself up for a huge task, but I want to create as much of this animation through traditional techniques. I am not a digital artist. I can use the programs to a good standard, and I do sketch and draw digitally on occasion but it is not something I am passionate about. I felt last year I found myself but drifted away from who I was at the same time.

Last year I fell in love with printmaking and I want to use this in my animation. My idea is to use a mixed print-making approach to create textures and imagery and then make the animation through collage. Therefore wouldn’t have to draw frame by frame as that would be impossible in the time, and even though I want to push myself I really need to think about my health still. Especially as I am still recovering from surgery, but I am also playing catch up from missing the first project. Therefore I need to consider my mental health.

I also have fallen in love with typography and it has started to strongly affect my work and I want to integrate it into my animation, and more so than I did in the project last year, I want to use letterpress to create texture and when I collage the frames, I want to cut up the words and text to create imagery.

The animation at the moment is to be about losing species which we rely on, such as fish and bees. These I want to print using either dry-point or hard-ground because I love the fine lines I can create and I think the juxtaposition would be beautiful and interesting.

Recently I have been inspired by the single covers of a musician called Sleeping at Last.

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Sleeping at Last is a musician which inspires me not just with beautiful cover design which mixes the digital, traditional and typography. Recently I have been finding the colours stunning in the designs. But the music has been an inspiration for me for years.

I have loved music since I was very young. I started learning the violin when I was 7, and taught myself the piano from an age I can’t remember. When I was 9 I started to learn how to play the Viola. Musicians will tell you their instrument called to them. The viola was that to me, the deeply silky and sultry tones, which had so much more depth than the violin could ever. I have such an eclectic taste in music from Queen and Fleetwood Mac, to Classical, Jazz and I adore folk plus much more. I find Sleeping at Last grasps the two ends of the spectrum, I love the way classical and orchestral instruments have been integrated with more popular music.

Even after today and the mention of copyright infringement, I want to use their music in this project because I always feel this music can convey so much meaning and visually I am wanting to integrate the traditional printmaking and other techniques with the digital and moving image, and this music to me represents that in audio.

Chicken Tikka Marsala

I was going down a route and kept hitting road blocks, and I felt like I had to keep bashing through them instead of finding and entire new route. I think I felt like I had to follow this route I had spent weeks going down, researching and putting time in, but it didn’t feel genuine.

During my 1-1 tutorial with Karl the day I returned to Uni something was mentioned which stuck with me and for some reason I kept thinking of.

“Food means a lot to you, it’s a big part of your life.”

I am a chef, I have been for a long time, and even if I decide in the future not to work in kitchens, food and being a chef is a large part of who I am. I haven’t embraced that part of me for a while, probably because it made my life hard for quite a while. I lost friends, lost myself, worked myself nearly to death, had relationships fall apart because of my career and I pushed people away because of it.

Now though I feel a bit different about it. Probably helps I don’t work 85 hour weeks any more at one of the most popular restaurants in London. Also I am now with my boyfriend who as I have stated before loves me and I do in return, and respects and looks after me. (Which after everything I have been through never thought was possible.)

I have a connection to food, and honestly I applied to University to run from my old life and that includes kitchens and being chef. So at Uni I wanted to forget that part of my life. But here I needed to embrace it.

Chicken Tikka Marsala is the UK’s National Dish. It is a Bastardised version of a proper Indian Curry.

I decided to look at this project a different way. I was fed up of thinking about what was expected and what was wanted and started to look at what I wanted, and what I wanted to explore, even if that meant going back to the beginning and starting again.

Over the last 2-3 centuries Indian and Asian food in general has become ever so popular, however food had to be developed from the English taste. Originally curry in UK was made by the British from what they learned and brought back from India however they had very limited spices so as the world became smaller with the invention of steam boats etc. Spices became more readily available and cheaper, and where brought back with also Indian Migrants and Curry was born (This is a real simplified version of the history).

http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/8370054.stm

Food migrates as well and with people. To me food is a huge part of individual culture and community.

For instance, Kingsland Road in Hoxton/Shoreditch has an insane amount of Vietnamese restaurants there and they all appeared when we had a influx of Vietnamese migrants into the area introducing new food to us. Food is still migrating now. I work in an Israeli restaurant. A culture and food not many people know about, but I love. This food has become more and more popular over the last couple of decades. Think of the boom of hummus, and falafel. And of course we have always had the kebab (not specifically Israeli but Middle-Eastern) but more and more places are popping up introducing this country to it’s food, it’s culture, the country’s soul.

So my idea…I want to create a graphic narrative of the UK’s national dish – Chicken Tikka Marsala.